Talent Works, Genius Creates.

So as far as the trip I can only hope that on Wednesday we can come to some sort of compromise on things. I am Ok with us taking the bus to New York, especially because the price is really good compared to other things. The only downside to that is we have find some sort of transportation up to DC. My preference would still be to take the train because it could bring us right back to Fredericksburg. But no matter. The next thing that we are supposed to work on is our digital story which i think should be fairly easy, but the only thing is that it is really time consuming to make a video which is my preferred method. I’m not sure though what to focus on in the presentation because it is supposed to be reflective of where we are now. I guess so that we can compare in the end of the class our video of now with our video of then. I think that one of the thing that i can focus on though is the duality of how right now I’m just trying to understand how to balance my two loves music and theatre. I know that they are very much a part of each other but in the same token there are times when i just one or the other. And then being that music to me often comes out at the most important realizing how much i want of the other. I don’t know there are a lot of things i need to figure out. Hopefully in the video i can capture my insecurities right now.

Well I’ve been finding more and more that the one thing I lack in me that I really want to gain more of is consistency. I really must say that it is one thing I really admire it in some of my friends and in others because of there lack of drives me crazy. And I bring this up because i think that it is hindering my abilities not only personally but professionally as well. I can never be consistent enough to stick to something and finish it out unless I am forced to. And how the heck can I ever accomplish anything if i don’t stick it out. Also on the same subject i just want to from now on erase the word lazy from my dictionary. I don’t ever again when having someone describe me be like,” Kind, giving, musical, and LAZY!” WHAT! I’m sorry but that word just doesn’t quite fit in with the rest. And frankly I think I’m at an age where that shouldn’t still be something that I battle with. Quite often. Oh and really fast tangent i just want to send my prayers out to the Norwood family during this difficult time. Mrs. Norwood was one of the kindest ladies I’ve met and she will be missed greatly. Ok now that I’ve said that back to the topic at hand, although it kinda segue into what i was just talking about. Because she no longer was with us but when she is remembered all I have are good things to say about her and i just hope that the same can be said for my self, So lazy will no longer be allowed in my dictionary. Instead just as Amy Adams says in Enchanted, “Still, as long as I am here I guess a new experience could be worth trying….As we all sing a happy little working song!”

So our last class was crazy, it seemed like no matter what we did we could not come to a consensus on anything. Why is New York so freeking expensive. I mean I understand that every person needs to eat, but I just feel like the prices of things are beyond ridiculous. I like to plan things, but it it so hard to do that when you have twenty voice all with completely different opinions putting them out there at the same time. And unfortunately at the moment with the money that we have it’s just not enough. If some more magically appears then we wont have to continue arguing about everything but goodness me. I really think that people are going to have to learn to give in. There are many thing that I’m not that crazy about, but you can’t change the situation so you might as well concede. I worry about this class and whether or not the people in it are going to work well together. When were discussing articles in the paper its fine, but don’t bring money into the picture and planning things cause then it just turns chaotic. Well I just hope that we can get everything together in time. I do have to say thought on a different note that i am a bit concerned about the contact that we are supposed to make in New York. I mean I’m sure that there are people out there, but the whole idea of knowing how to get in contact with them, what to ask them when you get there….. oh class….. I really need to decide what it is I want to get out of you. Cause as of yet I don’t really know. I need to be thinking about this on a deeper level as to career choices, but frankly the idea of having to think about career is just not what i call fun. And being that it is inevitably going to come in a few months makes me want to think even less of it. Maybe I will understand more of what this class is going to be and has for me if I just look at it as another opportunity to enhance my crafts in music and theatre, not as a finality, give me the answers to what I am going to do with my life, solution. And possibly through viewing the class this way for now, i can soon come to terms with everything else. Ok that enough droning on for now….. Until Tomorrow